I am often too tired to write long, intellectual posts or to do many other things that I would like to do, but in those times, I am finding it much easier to take refuge in my creativity. Instead of long, feminist rants, I am writing short, insightful poetry and instead of using my legs to take me on the long walks that I used to love, I am using my fingers to sew and embroider.
Thursday, I wrote this poem after showing my therapist my embroidered bags for the first time and she agreed that I might be able to make a little money by selling them at craft shows, which gives me a great feeling. I set up another site, called Femi-Nation, in order to be more political and "radical," but I am having to rethink whether I should continue it, since I am too tired to keep up with it in the way that I had intended. I am also rethinking what I am called to be. It is becoming ever more clear to me that I need to focus more on my recovery and on doing things that are positive than on dwelling on the awful injustices in the world. As much as I would love to fix all the world's problems, I have to start with my own and I can only do what I am able to do and it is just becoming more clear that I need to keep my mind in a positive place.
To reach deep inside of myself
And pull out all that is important-
All the stuff, the matter, of particles and atoms
That make up my cosmos
Are inside of me and my heart.
And I fling my art onto the world
Of pre-made dinners, processed cheese, and
Lies of ease.
And all that was within looks pale,
But the world outside looks even more
And here are my two latest embroidered creations:
This is actually an embroidered picture of a cake that my minister's mother made for Easter a few years ago! There are pink beads and yarn was used for the eyes, nose, and mouth.
This picture was taken in 2007 in a New Orleans cemetary and is my most intricate piece of work so far. I used faux flowers, beads, and the cross is actually an old earring.
Both images are sewn onto a super soft 100% cotton tote. They are 13-1/2" x 13-1/2" x 3-1/2" with the straps being 16."