My Godde, My Godde, why have You forsaken me?
My heart is dust without Your presence.
I need You more than my own hands and feet
For my name is Anguish.
I believe in You;
I know You are holy.
But do you believe in me?
Will You show me the love You’ve shown others?
Deliver me from this pit;
Hungry lions and wild dogs circle me,
Looking at me with murderous eyes.
You have answered me
and Your answers please my ears.
Only You deserve praise!
For only You set my heart to beating,
Only You deemed my body acceptable.
Now my name is Grateful.
I shall remember Your mercy forever
And I will tell my children,
And they will tell their children,
And we will tell the world.
To compare it to the original, go here. If you do, you'll probably notice that the first line is the same in both. When I write these poems, it's interesting which words speaks to my heart and which words I decide to change.
This thought, "Only You deemed my body acceptable," is so true! Our society is constantly sending us messages that our bodies are not good enough. A recent shoe designer was designing shoes for a high fashion Barbie, deemed her ankles to be too "fat" and reshaped her foot. Of course, there was nothing wrong with HIS designs! *snark (For more about the story, go here.)
I also watched a couple episodes of the new, but not improved show, Cougartown starring Courtney Cox. It is dreadful. The women are one-dimensional and are almost purely obsessed with their bodies. The men are just as bad, which my father observed, although I almost missed it, because I was cringing at the eating disorder behavior being displayed by the womyn. More and more, I think it's important to think about the things that we watch. I cringe when I think of how I would have reacted to watching a show like Cougartown when I was younger and worse in my ED. Yes, it's satire, but it's so close to reality that it's not funny.
On the other hand, a clip for the movie "Where the Wild Things Are" just came on and my heart just melted. I still love well-done children's movies. What movies are coming out that you are looking forward to watching? Any? Are they feel-good movies or just pure escapism?