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Alex from So you think you can dance

This routine is fabulous! Now I have never had a therapist inspire me to dance, although I did try dance therapy once. It didn't work for me, as I was way too self conscious at the time to get any benefit from it. How sad! The song frequently says, "Get out of your mind!" and there is some truth to that. I have a mentor who likes to say that when he goes into his mind, he gets mugged. What he is talking about is how worrying can cripple us, which is what those words remind me of. Often we need to "get out of our minds" and just be in the moment. Be in the moment and enjoy this dance.

Quote of the Day and Yoga

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I prefer a flexible heart to an inflexible ritual. (The Message Bible, 35) Speaking of flexibility, today I attended a yoga class for the first time in years. Traditionally I have hated going to any kind of class for exercise, because I was so paranoid that everyone in the class was staring at me. I can remember enjoying yoga alright in the past, but feeling too self conscious to want to keep attending. For years, I shunned group exercise and contented myself with solo power walking. Then fibromyalgia disrupted my life. I no longer can walk long distances and I need exercise that is easy on my joints. I tried water aerobics and I did enjoy it, but lazy person that I sometimes am, I don't like taking the time to put on a bathing suit. Also, I just did not feel adequately worn out when I was done-the session was over and I felt like I could have kept on going for a lot longer. So, today I tried yoga. My sponsor also has fibromyalgia and she claims it really helps her and I did

Dar Williams - "The Christians and The Pagans" (Live)

This is Dar Williams' holiday song and it is our favorite song by her. Once again, listen to the lyrics. I wish she had played it at the concert!

Dar Williams - "What Do You Hear In These Sounds"

This is a song about therapy. Listen to the lyrics, she gets the meaning of therapy right. Williams sang this song last night and I think it is fitting for a blog about recovery. My favorite part of the song is when she sings to her therapist, "I say, 'What?' Do you think I'm angry? Does that mean you think I'm angry?!"

Dar Williams Rocks!

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Last night I went to a Dar Williams and Sara Watkins concert at Variety Playhouse in Little Five Points and had a great time. I went with my two college roommates at Berry College, along with a husband. I didn't know Sara Watkins before going to the concert, although I had heard of her. I am now a fan! She plays violin and sings and has a bluegrassy sound. Dar Williams, if you've never heard of her, is a feminist Christian folk-rocker who writes really deep lyrics. Variety Playhouse is a wonderful venue, because it's fairly small, so the atmosphere is intimate. Williams is a wonderful performer, because she talks about the inception of each song before playing. As a fellow artist, I find that to be invaluable. Both she and Watkins are very witty and well, just plain cute. And so are we! As I was with my friends, I was struck by how well each of us is now doing. We met ten years when we were freshmen at college and we have each gone through some really trying times. Th

Lime Rum Cake

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Tuesday was one of the best days I have had in a long time. My brother came home and we celebrated Father's Day. That morning, I made a lime rum cake. It's supposed to be a key lime rum cake, but I didn't realize we had key lime juice until after the cake was put in the oven. First, I had to put on my apron! Isn't it cute? My mom got it for me and it states, "I love Mom." Ingredients: 3 cups all-purpose flour 1/2 teaspoon baking powder 1/2 cup shortening 1 cup butter 2 cups white sugar 5 eggs 2 tablespoons rum, or amount desired 2 teaspoons Key lime juice 1 tablespoon grated Key lime zest 1 1/2 teaspoons vanilla extract 1 cup milk 1/4 cup white sugar 1/4 cup butter 2 tablespoons Key lime juice 3 tablespoons rum I used Haitian rum in the recipe and while the cake was cooking, I used it to make myself a rum and coke. 1.Preheat oven to 325 degrees F (165 degrees C). Grease and flour a 10 inch tube pan. I used a silicone pan and I have talked about how much

Quote of the Day

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Learn the unforced rhythms of grace. (The Message Bible, 34) ***************************** I think this is a beautiful quote and I promise I will post food pictures tomorrow! I now have a part-time job as a preschool teacher and it is kicking my butt. Majorly sore all over...

Sermon "Safe Haven"

I feel like lately my blog has been a little unbalanced, as it's mostly been spiritual postings. I am going to post some recipes soon-tomorrow, I am hopefully making a rum key lime cake as a belated Father's Day gift to my dad. Posting recipes takes a little more time than the spiritual stuff, because I have to upload pictures and find the recipes, etc., but there will be more diversity here soon. Also, the spiritual stuff is really on my mind nowadays, because I am studying theology with my minister . So bear with me another day, as I talk about more spirituality. Yesterday I led the worship and preached at my church, Circle of Grace. It was a great experience and I think I did a good job. I find it very validating to be allowed to preach at my church, especially considering that I have never been to seminary. In my sermons, the talk is always centered around recovery, which is something I do have credential in-that is, I have great life experience in recovering from

India Arie Get it together

One shot to your heart without breaking your skin No one has the power to hurt you like your kin Kept it inside, didn't tell no one else Didn't even wanna admit it to yourself And now your chest burns and your back aches From 15 years of holding the pain And now you only have yourself to blame If you continue to live this way [Chorus:] Get it together You wanna heal your body You have to heal your heart Whatsoever you sow you will reap Get it together You can fly fly Dark future ahead of me That's what they say I'd be starving if I ate all the lies they fed Cause I've been redeemed from your anguish and pain A miracle child I'm floating on a cloud Cause the words that come from your mouth You're the first to hear Speak words of beauty and you will be there No matter what anybody says What matters most is what you think of yourself [Chorus] The choice is yours No matter what it is To choose life is to choose to forgive You don't have to try To hurt

Sometimes Godde Purrs

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This afternoon I came back to the house where I am cat-sitting really bummed. I had just found out that I have some more bills that I don't have the money to pay and I felt extremely overwhelmed. I laid down on the bed and worried and cried. As I was moaning, a soft body started rubbing against me. It was Miranda, my minister's cat! Miranda is an orange, female cat, who is very friendly. She was a comforting presence, but I continued to cry. Miranda then started purring, but I simply petted her and continued ranting. She then commenced purring right in my ear. I could not miss her happiness and I realized that I had a choice: I could continue feeling sorry for myself or I could take pleasure in hearing one of my favorite sounds. I had an epiphany, because I felt like Godde was talking to me through the cat's purr. It was like the line in Alice Walker's book, The Color Purple, "I think it pisses God off when you don't notice the color purple." Well, I rea

Quote of the Day

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He touched their eyes and said, "Become what you believe." (30, The Message Bible)

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Jesus, overhearing, shot back, "Who needs a doctor: the healthy or the sick? Go figure out what this scripture means 'I'm after mercy, not religion.'" I'm here to invite outsiders, not coddle insiders.

Blue Skin Does Not Replace People of Color

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I watched the movie, Avatar, last week and I must say I was only slightly impressed. Yes, the movie has great special effects, but for a movie that is filled with blue people, it sorely lacks colored people. In fact, there is not one person of color in the whole, very long, movie. To me, the movie's plot seemed insulting without a single person of color involved. The Na'vi people seemed a lot like the stories about Native Americans and yet the connection was never made. You see this a lot in science fiction-that science fiction writers can dream up new worlds, but they often cannot dream up a world that is without the patriarchy, racism, and homophobia. If you are going to dream up a new world, why not go all the way and dream of a new way of life also? Since the Na'vi are so obviously based upon Native Americans, I cannot say that the writer of Avatar was very original at all. Perhaps James Cameron thought that if the movie was filled with blue people, then there was no n

Quote of the Day

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Don't reduce holy mysteries to slogans. (The Message Bible, 25)

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Steep your life in God-reality, God-initiative, God-provisions. Don't worry about missing out. You'll find all your everyday human concerns will be met. (The Message Bible, 24)

The Mirror

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Has anyone by fussing in front of the mirror ever gotten taller by so much as an inch? (24, The Message Bible) This quote rings very true for me, because I am very short. I was teased a lot as a child. The worst was when people would come up to me and exclaim, "You're short!" It's so rude and yet if I ever said anything sarcastic back, I always got the impression that I was being the rude one. For some reason, it is more acceptable in our culture to be the one making the obvious and rude observation and not the one making the obvious and correct comeback. Another statement that I used to get and still get is, "Oh, you make me feel tall!," which is slightly better. Long ago, my comeback to that statement is that I figure Godde put me here to make other people feel better about themselves. Now that statement is true-we are here to help others. I spent a lot of time in my childhood being a little bitter that I was so obviously "different," but as t

Quote of the Day

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God doesn't require attention-getting devices. (23, The Message Bible) Ugh. I am so tired. Ideas are swirling around in my brain, but they will have to wait...

Medieval Times are Fun Times

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A couple of weeks ago, I went to Medieval Times to celebrate the girl I tutor's eighteenth birthday. We had fun watching the show, although I must say that more than watching the show, I enjoyed seeing Chrissy-the girl I tutor-enjoy herself. Chrissy has a developmental disability and depression and anxiety. In a world that often demeans or makes invisible those with developmental disabilities, I think it is so important to make sure that she feels special, appreciated, included, and at ease as often as possible. It makes me happy when I think she feels that way. In fact, I feel that is my main purpose in working with her-to make sure she has some time where she feels special and joyous. Of course, learning how to count money and follow directions is very important, but I feel there are much more important things than academics. As someone who has often felt devalued and anxious due to my mental illness, I can attest that feeling valued and at ease is critical to having a go

Quote of the Day

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I'm challenging that. I'm telling you to love your enemies. Let them bring out the best in you, not the worst.

Quote of the Day

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You don't make your words true by embellishing them with religious lace. (21, The Message Bible)

Quote of the Day

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You're here to be light, bringing out the God-colors in the world. (19, The Message Bible) And thank Godde that I am here at all! This is what happened to my car: I am humbled that I am still alive and I feel an even stronger drive to pursue life in the way that I am meant to-bright, colorful, and letting my God-light vibrantly shine. Last night I got the chance to share my recovery story at NAMI and I emphasized how hopeful my life is now. It felt good to share my story and perhaps pass a little of what I have to someone else.

May Books

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“Imago” by Octavia E. Butler – With the previous book, I was mad about leaving Lilith and then this time I was mad about leaving the story of Akin, but I quickly fell in love with Jodahs. My only complaint is that I never realized the meaning behind the title of the book, but perhaps I did not read carefully enough. I guess I’ll have to read it again sometime! I wish Butler had not died, because I could read about her characters forever. She really knows how to make a character come alive. “The Eternal Tomb” by Kevin Emerson – This is book five in the “Oliver Nocturne” series and it is simply dreadful. The girl I work with picked it out. (So don’t blame me!) I know we started in the middle of the series, but even so, the book was really confusing with too many big words. As a writer, I don’t think books should have huge words unless they contribute to the flow and meaning of the book and few books should be filled with them, especially when the audience is for preteens. I just do

Psalm 42

As the darkness long for light, So I yearn for You. I stumble around in the dark And with hands outstretched, I feel for Godde. I cry out, "Where are You?!" I remember my past And my days in the sun- Life was not always so painful. Why be miserable, O my soul? Remember hope! I try to remember, But I just get flooded by my past And I cannot move. I feel like I am the only one Doing the remembering. O Faithful Friend, remember me And remind me of my worth. Take my hand and lead Me down the paths of hope. ****************************** To read the original, go here . My friend, Monica Coleman, did an excellent post about how remembering the past can sometimes be helpful when dealing with depression. The first Tuesday of the month is always a speaker meeting at my NAMI group. Usually the speaker is a professional in the mental health community, who has great insights on new treatments or governmental policies, but this Tuesday, they are asking for members to talk about the