Through the heartfelt mercies of our God, God's Sunrise will break in upon us, shining on those in the darkness, those sitting in the shadow of death, then showing us the way, one foot at a time, down the path of peace. (The Message Bible, 121)
Oh, how I long for peace right now! I am caught in the throes of terrible anxiety, which is affecting my work, my health, and my peace of mind. What makes it really frustrating is that I am doing everything I know to do-I am taking my medication, I am back to seeing my therapist, I am talking about my feelings in groups, I am calling my sponsor and my doctor. What more can I do? Oh yeah, I can be easy with myself. That's the hard part. The fact is, as I have said before, there is no clear cure for anxiety or depression yet. I know that there are going to be times when I am going to struggle with anxiety, depression, or any of my other disabilities and I need to not be so hard on myself. I need to step up my self-care and take care of my soul. I have been so anxious that I have not been playing piano or doing any writing lately. I often forget when I start to become anxious or depressed to do the creative things I enjoy, but those things feed my soul. I need to let out my feelings through music, writing, or art. I need to remember that the anxiety is not all I am-there is more to me if I will creatively explore my emotions.