I talk honestly and openly about my experiences with mental illness, fibromyalgia, and chronic fatigue syndrome through the lens of feminism, fat acceptance and process theology. I also do recipe and book reviews. My mission is to spread the message that hope is always real for a better life, despite living in a world that is often very harsh.

Sunday, April 8, 2012

Party Requirements and Listening to Godde

Today I went outside into the beautiful, bright sunshine and laid in the hammock at my cousin's farm in Virginia.  I closed my eyes, felt the warm sun on my face, and listened to the wind.  The sounds reminded me of the ocean and I imagined that it was the voice of Godde telling me to "hush."  I listened to the wind and said, "Yeah, but there are things to think about..."

"Hush," was the response by The Holy One. "Be still and know that I am Godde."

"Yeah, but I am wasting the day by being still."

"Hush, be still, and know that I am Godde!"

Apparently sometimes it is important to just listen, so I shut my brain off and reveled in the moment.  I noticed tinkling wind-chimes and buzzing bees. Birds were chattering away and throughout it all I heard the wind urging me to hush.  I felt full of peace and gratitude. At first, I felt sort of bad for enjoying myself-there are other people who are in misery right now and who need my help, but each time I felt badly, Godde calmed me down with her windy lullaby.  Then I knew that it is okay to enjoy myself.  I have had a very hard year and this moment is a time for renewal.  What better way to spend Easter than by soaking up the beauty of Godde's creation.  I breathed in deeply and felt deep within my soul that "all is well."

There is misery in the world, to be sure, but we must take these moments of renewal and reflection when we can.  This week in which I have hardly felt any anxiety, I have felt a sense of rebirth inside of me.  Rebirth to embrace life and to help change it for the better.  Rebirth to listening to the world around me and to seeing and responding to the Godde in everything.

The year’s at the spring,
And day’s at the morn;
Morning’s at seven;
The hill-side’s dew-pearled;
The lark’s on the wing;
The snail’s on the thorn;
God’s in His heaven—
All’s right with the world! (Robert Browning)

My conversation with Godde today was my favorite conversation of the week-today's prompt-but the award to best one-liner goes to my cousin, Alice:
It isn't a party unless someone's peed on the carpet.
She was talking about the dogs, of course. My cousin doesn't get mad when one of the dogs pees on the carpet, but simply cleans up the mess and carries on with her day. Life is too short to get stressed out over the small things, at least that's what I'm beginning to learn.

funny pictures of dogs with captions
what makes you think i had a party?

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