On the surface, calm may seem weak. It is anything but.It's true-it takes a lot of strength to use my coping skills and remain calm when I am triggered. There have been a few times lately when I have been triggered and I have managed to remain at least somewhat calm and to not act out. That is a great accomplishment for me.
I am also a lot more calm around food than I used to be. It used to be that I only felt secure eating salads and boring salads with no dressing or cheese or anything else tasty, at that! Ugh! I'm so glad that those days are behind me. So here is a salad that is anything but boring, as it is based on a sandwich that features two of my old fear foods: bacon and mayo!
BLT Salad with Basil Mayo
Quartered Tomatoes - Don't they look like beautiful, sparkling rubies?
And the ingredient that used to be feared:
4. In a large bowl mix together the romaine, tomatoes, bacon and croutons. Pour the dressing over the salad and toss well.
This was a light and very delicious salad! Perfect for summer dinners and I am so glad that I am now able to be calm around the once-so-scary bacon and mayo combination!
As you can see, I made a little sauce to dip my roll in made out of tahini and honey. Yum! Salads don't have to be boring and just so you know, being calm is not being boring either-it's being strong. It's a strength that comes from seeing myself triumph over previous triggers and being able to now rest assured that I can do so again.
Stalled at 12 - There is only so much mileage you can get off of being intuitive in disturbing ways.
Intermittent psychosis is not a gift, but I'll be damned if somewhere in all this I didn't learn to relax a little more....