I talk honestly and openly about my experiences with mental illness, fibromyalgia, and chronic fatigue syndrome through the lens of feminism, fat acceptance and process theology. I also do recipe and book reviews. My mission is to spread the message that hope is always real for a better life, despite living in a world that is often very harsh.

Tuesday, September 4, 2012

Cinnamon Bun Cupcakes

 I have a lot to write about! I just spent three glorious days at Dragon Con and it's time to post about last month's books, but first I am going to gush about the cinnamon bun cupcakes I made for my dad's birthday! I need to write about my dad's cupcakes now, so I can concentrate on making my mom philly blackforest stuffed cupcakes for her birthday this Thursday.  

First, I am going to present you with two pictures of myself.  I have been struggling with some body image issues after gaining a little weight recently.  Just a week ago I was being melodramatic, because the weight gain was making me feel out of control and I started to glamorize my eating disorder, when I sometimes felt that my obsessive calorie counting kept my life in control.  I say "sometimes," because as my eating disorder got worse, I knew that my life was actually spinning out of control.

So what do I do to combat my feelings of insecurity?  I continue to take pictures of myself and to look at them!  I really have found that taking pictures of myself in the moments when I feel good about myself helps me, because when I look at the picture later I can see the feeling in my face, body posture, and the way that I have taken care of myself.  I know what I look like when I feel bad, depressed, anxious-my hair is greasy, my clothes are sloppy, and my affect is flat-what I need is the awareness of what feeling good and having confidence does to me-it makes me look and feel good!  It gives me a glow!

Here I am in a beautiful shirt I got a few weeks ago at a store called Rainbow.
Rainbow was closing, so they were having a clearance sale-bad for the store, but good for me!  My therapist remarked that I got a rainbow shirt from a rainbow store.  Well, you know I'm a sucker for rainbows!  The pink tank top underneath is from Old Navy and I'm wearing a turquoise choker given to me by my father.
Isn't that sparkly and pretty?  Even my hair had to participate in the rainbow fun!

Now onto the cupcakes!  I always feel good when eating something sweet!  My dad loves cinnamon rolls, but real cinnamon rolls take a long time to make, so I decided to make him quick and easy cinnamon roll cupcakes instead.  I got the recipe from the blog, Hoosier Homemade.

Ingredients
1 box cake Butter or Yellow cake mix
4 eggs 
1 cup buttermilk
 1/3 cup oil
Cinnamon and Sugar for Swirl {about 1/2 cup sugar and 2 tablespoons cinnamon}
 Streusel Topping
1/2 cup brown sugar
2 tablespoons flour
1-2 tablespoons cinnamon
1/2 teaspoon nutmeg
1/4 cup butter, melted
Glaze
1/2 cup powdered sugar
1-2 tablespoons milk
    Instructions

    1. Prepare cake mix with eggs, buttermilk, and oil.  Set aside.
    2.  Combine cinnamon and sugar in a small bowl and set aside.
    3.  Combine dry streusel ingredients in a bowl.
    4. Melt butter in the microwave.
    5. Add a small amount of butter at a time, stirring after each addition, until the mixture is crumbly.  (I accidentally poured in all of the butter at once and then stirred, which produced a sauce instead.  Fortunately, the taste was not affected.)  
    6. Preheat oven to 350 degrees.
    7. Line a muffin tin with cupcake liners.
    8. Add about two tablespoons of batter to the liners.
    9. Sprinkle with cinnamon sugar mixture.















    10. Add about two more tablespoons of batter on top.
    11. Sprinkle on streusel topping.
    12. Bake for about 10-15 minutes or until a toothpick inserted comes out clean.
    13.  Cool completely. 
    Glaze
    14.  Add powdered sugar to a small bowl.
    15. Slowly add milk until mixture becomes the desired consistency.
    16. Drizzle over cooled cupcakes.
    The cupcakes were light and moist and they tasted just like cinnamon rolls.  They practically melted in our mouths!
    Here are two shots of the inside of the cupcakes: as you can see, they have swirls of cinnamon sugar inside!  Mmmmm-so much sugar!!!!  Pass me some milk please!  My dad loved his birthday present and so did I!

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    1 comment:

    1. I almost skipped this post because I thought it would just be a recipe, but I'm glad I didn't. I LOVE your idea of taking self-portrait pictures when I feel good about myself! I'm really good at taking my own picture when I feel crappy, and of course, it usually reinforces the feeling: "Yup, I not only feel crappy, I look crappy too, so I must just be a crappy person." But - duh - it should work the other way too. Not now, not at midnight when I'm overtired and sweaty... but tomorrow morning for sure, after I take a shower and put on clean clothes. Thanks for the tip!

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