Everything's Gonna Be Alright
Recovery is a whole series of storms, storms that help to sprout new growth, storms that flush clean our own clogged drains. The peace that comes after a storm is worth singing about. ~ Each Day A New Beginning: Daily Meditations For Women by Karen CaseyA few weeks ago, I performed with The Rise Theater as the goddess of creativity. I strolled around a recovery fair and sang songs to people with flowers in my hair:
One of the songs I sang was the Bob Marley song, Three Little Birds. If you can't recall the song, it's the one where the chorus sings,
Don't worry 'bout a thing 'cause everything's gonna be alright
It's a really lovely song and I enjoyed singing it.
About half a week ago, I was late for an event and I was beginning to lose it. I could feel myself begin to become agitated in the car when the song lyrics popped into my head. Internally hearing the song lyrics again enabled me to be able to pause and take some deep breaths. I was able to reassess the situation: I was not actually going to be late but right on time. I would have to cook my dessert as soon as I got there but it should be done in about an hour. Well, that's fine - the guests will still be there and besides people usually eat dessert after any meal, anyway. I realized that, in essence, everything would really be fine and that I had blown an annoying situation out of proportion. As I made my way to the event, I kept on taking deep breaths and chanted to myself that everything was gonna be alright.
And the event was more than alright - it was a great success and I was quite proud of myself.
I wish I could say that I have not had more incidents of anxiety but I would be woefully wrong. In fact, the past few days have been painfully anxious and overwhelming for me at times. I really hate it that I am not perfect! Sometimes I think it would be nice to be a programmable machine but then I would not be to sing at all and the arts really are my saving grace.
Fortunately, these lyrics have continued to help. They have not been able to save me from making mistakes but they have provided me solace. When I have started to struggle, I eventually am able to remember the lyrics and then reflect that no matter what happens, everything will eventually work out. I don't mean that the situation is guaranteed to work out in the way that I want - of course not - I mean that life is change and eventually what stresses me out today will barely be a memory. Accepting that is the key to maybe not bliss, but probably contentment.
To me, that is a life worth living.