The Lord God is my strength; He will make my feet like deer's feet, and [S]he will make me walk on my high hills. Do not fear, Zion, let not your hands be weak. The Lord your God is in your midst, The Mighty One, will save; [S]he will rejoice over you with gladness, [S]he will quiet you with His[Her] love. [S]he will rejoice over you with singing. Zephaniah 3:18
Facebook Collected Writings: Responding to a friend who read an article that said talking about illness online is "attention-seeking." Just ugh Articles like those are ableist. Sometimes illnesses really do need attention. Problems don't go away if we stop talking about them. In fact, it's the exact opposite. Those articles just reenforce the status quo. And the status quo is only good if you're a healthy white rich educated straight cisgender Christian male and then it's still an illusion. 🙂
When I have no hope for myself, sometimes I can find hope through other people and hearing their stories. Debbie Corso is a blogger I enjoy and she shares her story that after being diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder, she took DBT and was able to have her diagnosis removed. Knowing that she did that inspired me to give it a try and within two years, I didn't qualify anymore either. I used to think about suicide every day for 20 years but then I finally got tired of hospitals and I really started looking at if I could change my thinking. (That, along with a good therapist, the right med, and support but it all started with me being willing to examine myself.). I don't think about suicide on a daily basis anymore. What I have noticed is that change always happens - life is change but often times it is a slow slow process instead of the instant gratification that we long for. Looking for the little ways that my life has begun to change has been really helpful.