I'm a little embarrassed to admit this, but I have a few new year's resolutions this year. I prefer to call them "goals," because I think it sounds more definite and it feels more likely that I'll actually achieve them.
1. To blog more often. You may have noticed that I blogged more last month than usual. That wasn't just because I was on vacation. The main reason is I have a lot more energy than I used to and I feel like now is the time to stretch myself, to do more while I can. Besides, I have a lot of things to say. The content won't change much-I'll still write a hodgepodge of spiritual insights, book and recipe reviews, pop culture critique and stories about my recovery-just more often. My goal is to write a post every day, except on the days when I am too exhausted, like yesterday. I want to push myself, but I am not unrealistic.
2. To work full time. Before you gasp in surprise, no I don't mean a paid, full-time job. I spent this past year getting better while working on my recovery and I feel like I am doing well enough to experiment with working full-time. My plan is to keep my part-time job in the morning and to volunteer for several more hours in the afternoon every day at a nursing home/assisted living place. My ultimate career goal is to be an activities coordinator/director or at least be an assistant to one at a place where elderly are. I'm feeling better lately, but I honestly don't know if working eight hours a day will be too much for me or not and I don't know if I will get too anxious and stressed-out or not. I figure the only way I will know if I am ready for a full-time job is to do full-time volunteering. That way, if it doesn't work out, quitting won't be as much of a big deal. Also, I am used to coming home after my morning job and taking a nap. I am very interested in seeing if I have the stamina to work longer hours. Of course, there are many small goals I will have to accomplish in order to start the volunteer job-visiting nursing homes, talking to their activities coordinator, reworking my resume, etc. but I am very excited about this. I feel like I am stepping out in the right direction.
Are you making any resolutions? If you are, what are they?
Of course, there will still be days when i will feel like this: