Self-Awareness

I am the only Guinea pig I have. ~ R. Buckminster Fuller

Here is my latest roundup of Facebook writings: Periodically, I try getting off my meds and always get back on and at this point, that's actually good, I think.  I'm very self-aware and am determined to never be hospitalized again.  So as long as I am self-aware, why not give it a try?  I'm back on my meds, mainly for my depression, pain and anxiety.  I've finally found a good combination for me and I do think I will always be on my antidepressant, as I use it for  physical symptoms, as much as mental.  I would like to be off my antipsychotic one day, the whole cost being higher than my rent being enough of a reason on its own, I think. (Don't worry too much, I am able to get free samples from my doc, but still, the knowledge hurts my heart and soul.}. But as it also helps with anxiety, that might not happen.  (I got disability for my schizo affective disorder but we all know my main issue is anxiety.  I mean, really.}. I'm tired of the stigma against and for medications. I'm tired of people not knowing that psych meds, including antipsychotics are used for many uses, including chronic pain, IBS, and many other less stigmatized things.  (I'm actually going to up my antidepressant to help with those two things! Keep your fingers crossed.}.  So hey!  Less meds over the long haul I think should be the goal but even better there should be less pushing by other people for more or less medications.  No one knows what works best for a person than the person taking them and every person is different.

  I love social media, i love smartphones and tablets.  They let me connect to people on the other side of the world and carry both The Complete Poems of Emily Dickinson and Bad Feminist on MARTA.  Focus on the positive in this world, not the negative.  (But work to change the negative too) I love all my people!!